Unfortunately, my beloved has not received his student visa yet.  So, postponed his flight, will only reach here on 7 January 2009.  It is really sad because it will be a lonely Christmas and New Year, but never mind, it is time for me to grow stronger.  As His child, I should be patient, faithful, strong… the most important is be contented.  That is what He wants us to be.  Be contented with what we have now, be contented with who we are.

Me: Yesterday was winter solstice.  I miss you and my family a lot.

JT: I miss you a lot too, ben ben de.

Me: I miss home-made rice balls.  Can eat as much as I can.  I only ate 5 instant rice balls here and ate alone.

JT: (Laughed) Ni hen ben a, you are very cute.  You said, “I only ate 5 instant rice balls here”.

The above was a little part of our conversation yesterday.  Haha.  Yes, I really miss home-made rice balls.  However, actually I had 10 rice balls.  I had 5 in advance.  They costed me AUD 3.30, approximate RM 7.90 for 10 rice balls only…

Ben ben, cannot express how much I miss you.  Enjoy 10 more days with your family.  Take care and see you soon.  And yes, you must guide me because He has sent you here for me.

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Two days ago ( 21 December 2008 ) was winter solstice.  Missed home-made rice balls so much.  My youngest sister, Cynthia, was online.  Thus, we talked for a while.

Sis: Did you have rice balls today?

Me: Yes, I did.

Sis: Nice? I doubt they are nice.

Me: Still okay but too sweet.

Sis: Of course. The nicest rice balls are made by me.

Me: *vomit* If I ate those you made, I will sick.

Sis: (laughed)

Haha.  That was the conversation between my cute, stupid, childish youngest sister and me.  Although she is seven-year younger than me, we are very close to each other.  I love her a lot because she is my youngest sister.  And I always hope that she can do well in anything.  I used to nag her, scold her etc.  Not sure how much I influenced her, but I can see that I did influence her.  Things that we do, things that we like, food that we eat etc.  I do not like the skin of fish.  Whenever I have fish, I would not eat the skin.  When she was little, she asked me why I am not eating the skin, I told her that if you eat the skin, scale will grow on your skin.  Hahaha.  So, since that day, she has not been eating the skin too.

Whenever I saw those little kids at the church, I always recalled her when she was still a little cute baby.  She liked Pikachu and Winnie the Pooh a lot when she was little.  Thus, I bought for her during my trips.  She likes Detective Conan, thus I bought a series, which shared with my beloved, for her birthday present this year.  I protected her, taught her, loved her…  Hope that one day, she will be more successful than me, hope that she can do those I did not manage to do.  Hope that she knows.  And, I hope that she can be more independent.  Do your best, sis.

On the other hand, I feel so sorry to my younger sister, Alison.  I have never loved her as much as I love Cynthia.  I have never put more effort on her, I have never taught her.  Perhaps it is because she used to bully me when we were little.  Anyway, I still love her because she is my sister.  Whenever mum canned her, I felt so heart ache.  I tried to comfort her, tried to get something to apply on her skin, tried to advise her to be better next time.  I am sorry for not being a good sister.  I have not been responsible for so many years.  However, I am really glad to see that she is on the right track at the moment.  May your wishes come true, Alison.

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Friends.  I miss my friends as well.  I am not out-going and I am cold, thus caused my interpersonal relationship  too poor to have friends.  I appreciated those who are willing to befriend with me.  Thank you for being my friends, no matter what.  Nonetheless, I really hope to have many friends.  My ex-classmates are going to have gathering dinner on Christmas eve.  So sad that I cannot join.  Have fun, guys and girls.  And also, some people (Angelina, Mabel, Yan Ni, Jin Mei) are going to have a trip to Singapore together.  Safe trip and enjoy yourselves, girls.  My 15-year (going to be 16-year soon) friend Yun, cheer up.  You used to be happy go lucky.  But lately, you seem to be so unhappy.  Be happy, Yun.  Dear friends, take care, wish you all the best.

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Beloved, family and friends.  He has given me the greatest love because He loves me.

“Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God.  Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.”
1 John 4:7-8