You shall not give false testimony against your neighbour.
Exodus 20:16

從 《District 9》 中，看到人爲了權勢，不惜置對方于死地； 爲了利益，不惜親人的生命。人的自私，導致謊言連篇。反之，外星人爲了不帶給人類麻煩， 也爲了不讓族群被逼迫，想盡辦法離開地球，不惜代價，努力尋找發動機器的原料。片中，令我感觸最深的就是外星人與人的對話。

人 （Wikus Van De Merwe）：你走吧！
外星人 （Christopher）：我不能就這樣離開。我們的約定是要你跟我一起走的。

外星人都能與人合作，爲何人就不能與人合作呢？人是否知道自己的醜陋嗎？

“Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.”

Phillipians 2:3-4

很多時候，我們已經計劃好要走的路，但是往往會踫到出乎意料的事，害得我們不知所措，心裏更是鬱悶、悲傷，有些人甚至崩潰。可是，我們忘記了，每件事情的背後都有一個理由。

眼看終點快到了，沒料到我卻摔了一跤，棒子掉了，終點頓時變成了起點。爲什麽會發生這種事啊？咳…… 我怨我自己太大意，我怨我自己拖累了其他人。心情迅速地跌入谷底。原本有機會得殿軍的，現在，什麽都沒了。我哭著想著：“祂爲什麽要這樣對我？”

我那麽一摔，跌傷了雙手雙腳。可是，有些人不但沒有安慰我，還在我傷口上灑鹽。只有一些人會安撫我，逗我開心。

這兩天，我終于領悟到，原來祂要我做更多的準備，更努力地練習，去參加來臨的比賽。前天，路邊的一個牌子，上面寫著：“Do what you like，like what you do”。這句話深深地留在我腦海裏。的確，如果我們不喜歡某樣工作，我們就不會有動力完成工作。昨天，又在課堂上學到 —— “What you are deeply passionate about？What you can be the best in the world at？What drives your economic engine？” （The Hedgehog Concept – Collins 2002）。如果我們能在這三個圈子的交集上找到我們所要的工作，那麽就往那兒去。

想一想，我這一陣子都一直在尋找合適自己的工作。我終于找到了答案。

明天會是什麽顔色的？只有祂曉得。

“In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.”
Proverbs 16:9

儀器與技術，如果沒有技術，就算你有再好的儀器，你仍然不會有好的表現。打個比方，你擁有一台二手 Kawai 鋼琴，你都不練習，琴藝就只停留在那裏。你朋友有台 Yamaha 的大鋼琴，她的琴藝超級棒。因此，你下定決心買一台 Yamaha 大鋼琴，這樣你才能有一手好的琴藝。你不是很可笑嗎？如果是因爲儀器讓你有好的成就，那麽，要不要去問問 Mozart、Beethoven、Clementi、Bach、Richard Clayderman 等，看看他們用什麽牌子的鋼琴。

反之，一個買不起鋼琴的女孩，她爲了練習，每天中午都到樂器店練習。但是，樂器店老闆只應許她用那台沒人要的破鋼琴。就算是台破鋼琴，她仍然很努力地練習。每天花上二小時，不斷地練習。後來，她一級棒的琴藝，使她被英國的音樂學校錄取。從這件事看來，是因爲鋼琴讓她有好的琴藝嗎？

總而言之，不要因爲別人的儀器比你的差，而懷疑別人的技術。不僅如此，還到處說別人因儀器，技術只能到那個程度。可你想一想，別人的儀器產出的作品，是你的儀器所不能產出的。

“To man belong the plans of the heart, but from the LORD comes the reply of the tongue. All a man’s ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the LORD.”
Proverbs 16:1-2

反正，我既不是產商，也不是樂器店老闆，不管你選擇哪台鋼琴，又不是我的損失，因我並得不到什麽好處。

“The mouth of the righteous man utters wisdom, and his tongue speaks what is just.”
Psalm 37:30

人生中難免遇到挫折。但是，我們應該感謝折磨我們的人。因爲他們，我們更長一智。豈不是一樂嗎？雖然我們有困難、憂傷等，祂仍然會重整我們的心，讓我們繼續往前行。

“Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again.”
Psalm 71:20-21

一直在考慮接下來的路，該怎麽走。這讓我想起主日學所談到的“自由”。何謂自由？人是自由的嗎？這個問題，我好渴望，有一天，我能遇見祂，祂親自解釋給我聼，因爲人只能用自己理解的方式來解釋。

一直以來，我有好多的夢想。可是往往夢想都無法實現。不是沒有去實踐，而是種種的因素，使夢想一再又一再地破碎了。很多時候，我試著忘記夢想，踏踏實實地活在現實的生活裏。但是，一旦夢想被鈎起，我又跌入谷底，心裏想：什麽時候才能實現我的夢想？爲什麽實現夢想那麽難？祂爲什麽讓我處在這裡？祂究竟要我做什麽呢？好多好多無解的問題浮現。

無可否認，我羡慕那些想怎麽樣就怎麽樣、想做什麽就做什麽、想讀什麽就讀什麽、想花什麽就花什麽等的人。即將畢業了，但我卻不懂應該往哪兒走，因爲迷迷糊糊地拿了第一張本科文憑，前途一片迷茫。

夢想，淩亂了我的思緒。

雖說有煩惱憂愁，但是上週也有開心喜樂。終于踏入了第三年。經歷兩年裏的喜怒哀樂，我們更加珍惜與了解彼此。

想對自己說：加油，努力前行。

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.”
Proverbs 3:5-6

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2009/05/25/grief/feed/ 3 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2009/05/07/mankind/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2009/05/07/mankind/#comments Thu, 07 May 2009 08:08:23 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=404 ]]> 人類是：

• 最聰明的動物
• 四肢發達
• 有文化、文明的
• ……

但，人類卻很可笑。

説道有文化，或許我們並沒察覺到，原來我們周圍都有很多沒有文化的人。我就遇到了“有文化”的人。

• 講電話時，超級大聲，不顧慮鄰舍。
• 三更半夜在那兒走來走去，把其他人吵醒。
• 吃完飯，拍拍屁股就走，不清理自己弄亂或髒的地方。
• 不管是刷牙、洗臉或沖涼，總把沖涼房弄得滿地都是水。

所以啊，都說有幾千年文化，但是，看看吧，這像是有文化的麽？

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師母說：“每個人都有不同的興趣，如果所有的人都唱歌，誰聼歌呢？”

對啊。就算是雙胞胎，個性、興趣等都不一樣。爲什麽一定要修那些熱門的科係（比如醫科、會計、工程），才被人看重呢？修讀什麽係都無所謂，只要是自己想要的，能發揮自己的一技之長，哪有什麽問題嗎？有些人，也想選讀熱門的科係，不是因爲要被重視，而是有興趣，但是，種種因素導致這些人只好“放棄”了自己的夢想。

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保羅勸勉哥林多教會的人要合一，不可分黨；要牢記，以基督為中心，而不是奉承人。

有錢有勢的人就只能與其相承的人交通嗎？有錢有勢的人就那麽了不起嗎？有錢有勢的人，奉承他們的人就很多。只要他們說什麽，許多人就心甘情願的為他們效勞。就算是他們做了一些事，爲了保持“關係”，奉承他們的人也不敢啃一聲。

難怪非基督徒常認爲，去教堂的人都是有錢人。基督教是有錢人的宗教。
所以，這就是問題的來源。

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說別人之前，想想自己有沒有犯同樣過錯。

人往往指向別人，但是，從來沒有想一想自己是否也跟他們一樣。

人類豈不是很可笑麽？

（注：雖然沒有十全十美的人，但世界上還是有很多好人。以上只不過是指某一群人。）

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不管怎樣，或許這都是祂安排的。祂給的，不一定與我們所求的一模一樣，但是他總會給我們最好的。

問題，解決了。
終于可以安枕無憂，安心準備考試了。

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”
Matthew 7:7

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2009/05/07/mankind/feed/ 0 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2009/02/05/happenings/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2009/02/05/happenings/#comments Thu, 05 Feb 2009 02:20:41 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=376 ]]> Weather

It was the worst week I have ever had.  Last week’s weather was driving me crazy.  40-44 degree celsius for the whole week.  Non-stop sweating although stayed indoor, unless the air conditioner is switched on.  Go for a sauna, you will know how it felt like.  According to the news, 18 people died because of the weather.  The government started the campaign for preventing skin cancer as well.  You can see the advertisement on the buses.

Don’t let your time in the sun catch up with you
( Australian Government, Department of Health and Ageing 2008 )

People are advised to wear sun protective clothing that covers as much of your body as possible, apply SPF30+ broad spectrum water resistant sunscreen every two hours, wear wrap-around sunglasses, put on a broad-brimmed hat that shades your face and neck, and also seek shade.

Chinese New Year & Australia Day (26 January 2009)

Coincidently, this year’s Chinese New Year fell on 26 January, same as Australia Day.  Thus, it was a public holiday.  One day free.  Despite nothing to do at home, we decided to walk around Docklands.  We just walked around, window-shopped and took photos.  That is what we usually do.  After that, we went to the Shrine of Remembrance.

Shrine of Remembrance

After Shrine of Remembrance, we thought of going to the Royal Botanic Garden.  However, we decided to go back as we were hungry without our lunch.  We dined outside that day to celebrate Chinese New Year.  Headed right back to home after our dinner.  That was how we spend our Chinese New Year away from home.

Living

We live with pinch and scrape.  You will never understand unless you stay with us.

1. Buy cheap groceries
   We always search for the offered things to buy.  We just bought a bag of carrots for AUD 1 only.
2. Bring our own lunch to work or study
   Eating outside is expensive.  We cook every dinner, thus, we can bring the left-over for the next lunch.
3. Wash clothes twice a week
   That is equal to once a week per person.  Save electric and water.
4. No fan, no air-conditioner
   Fan is not provided, and we are not going to buy as well.  Natural wind, that is enough.  Will only switch on the air-conditioner when the weather is hot (exceeds 30 degree celsius).
5. Seldom at home
   Landlady and JT will not be at home during day-time.  Thus, when I am off, I will go to the university, wait until JT’s class ends.
6. No unnecessary things
   Never buy unnecessary things.

We cannot avoid the transport tickets.  It is an offence to travel without a valid ticket, and penalties of up to AUD 500 are applicable if detected travelling without a correct, validated ticket ( Metlink, 2009 ).  International students are not eligible to buy concession tickets, that is the Victorian laws.  If our universities had campuses in other states, we definitely will move to the state which has cheaper expenses.

If we knew we never shall have done this or that, everyone will be perfect.  The plane has departed, we cannot stop the plane unless we want to jump off and fly back to the origin.  Whatever God brings us to, He will bring us through.

“Do not let your hearts be troubled.  Trust in God; trust also in me.  In my Father’s house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you.  I am going there to prepare a place for you.  And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.  You know the way to the place where I am going.”
John 14:1-14

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2009/02/05/happenings/feed/ 2 Jaclyn sr3 http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2009/01/13/update/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2009/01/13/update/#comments Tue, 13 Jan 2009 01:21:02 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=367 ]]> It has been a few weeks from my previous blogged.  So far so good.  My beloved is finally here.  He has become one of my housemates now.  We have to look after each other, take care of each other, learn from each other without our parents on this land.

Went to Monash University marketing department to work.  Leony told me that there are 43 people in the marketing department.  However, most of them are taking leave, thus only 13 people are working.  The office is very big and quiet.  It is on the 9th floor, has a very nice view.  That was the first time I worked in that kind of environment.  But… of course I was not doing the paperworks, I was just helping Leony with the posters, calendars and greeting cards.  Labelled, packed, stamped and checked after that put aside waited for mailing.  Not a big deal, did the job in the meeting room by myself.  I was allowed to walk around ( but I did not walk around, only went to the washroom ) and even could drink and eat those provided in the pantry.

Typical Caucasian has bigger size than Asian.  I am a small size Asian.  Probably Loretta thought I am too small in size, thus she gave me a chocolate bar.  She asked Leony, “Where is the little skinny girl?”  So, Leony told her that I was in the meeting room.  She came in and gave me the chocolate.  Anyway, I like to be thin.  That is why I am controlling my diet because I am not thin in nature, I can grow fat.

These few days, I am not working because they have not received the goods from the merchandiser yet.  I will go back to work once the goods are there.  I am experiencing a housewife’s life at the moment.  Wake up at 7 a.m, prepare breakfast, clean up, wash and hang the clothes, watch television, online, groceries shopping, prepare dinner, get the clothes in and fold them, go to bed before 10 p.m.

The below was the conversation between my beloved and I while we were watching television.

Me: I am living like a housewife these few days.
JT: That’s good.  So, be a housewife.
Me: No, not now.  I will be a housewife, but not now.
JT: Why?
Me: It is too boring.  I have nothing to do.

Despite stressful work, I still want to be an office lady.  A full-time housewife… Will be that after I “retire”.

“The LORD bless you and keep you; the LORD make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; the LORD turn his face toward you and give you peace.”
Numbers 6:24-26

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2009/01/13/update/feed/ 4 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/12/31/goodbye-2008/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/12/31/goodbye-2008/#comments Wed, 31 Dec 2008 00:21:24 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=360 ]]> It is the last day of 2008.  In this year, what has God done to me?  Uncountable.  I will not mention all of them.

1. Closer relationship with my beloved and his family.
2. Given the opportunity to study abroad.
3. Learnt to be more independent.
4. Live more like a Christian.
5. He sent my beloved to guide me with His words.

I am grateful to have Him.  I will be a good child.

The coming 2009, what am I going to do?

1. Study well and graduate.
2. Find a good employer to sponsor me.
3. Earn my own money.
4. Physically, mentally, spiritually grow stronger.

Wish that I will achieve them.  I will do my best, the rest, leave to Him.

“For this is God, our God forever and ever; He will be our guide even to death.”
Psalm 48:14

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/12/31/goodbye-2008/feed/ 3 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/12/23/can-you-feel-the-love/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/12/23/can-you-feel-the-love/#comments Tue, 23 Dec 2008 03:06:55 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=347 ]]> Unfortunately, my beloved has not received his student visa yet.  So, postponed his flight, will only reach here on 7 January 2009.  It is really sad because it will be a lonely Christmas and New Year, but never mind, it is time for me to grow stronger.  As His child, I should be patient, faithful, strong… the most important is be contented.  That is what He wants us to be.  Be contented with what we have now, be contented with who we are.

Me: Yesterday was winter solstice.  I miss you and my family a lot.

JT: I miss you a lot too, ben ben de.

Me: I miss home-made rice balls.  Can eat as much as I can.  I only ate 5 instant rice balls here and ate alone.

JT: (Laughed) Ni hen ben a, you are very cute.  You said, “I only ate 5 instant rice balls here”.

The above was a little part of our conversation yesterday.  Haha.  Yes, I really miss home-made rice balls.  However, actually I had 10 rice balls.  I had 5 in advance.  They costed me AUD 3.30, approximate RM 7.90 for 10 rice balls only…

Ben ben, cannot express how much I miss you.  Enjoy 10 more days with your family.  Take care and see you soon.  And yes, you must guide me because He has sent you here for me.

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Two days ago ( 21 December 2008 ) was winter solstice.  Missed home-made rice balls so much.  My youngest sister, Cynthia, was online.  Thus, we talked for a while.

Sis: Did you have rice balls today?

Me: Yes, I did.

Sis: Nice? I doubt they are nice.

Me: Still okay but too sweet.

Sis: Of course. The nicest rice balls are made by me.

Me: *vomit* If I ate those you made, I will sick.

Sis: (laughed)

Haha.  That was the conversation between my cute, stupid, childish youngest sister and me.  Although she is seven-year younger than me, we are very close to each other.  I love her a lot because she is my youngest sister.  And I always hope that she can do well in anything.  I used to nag her, scold her etc.  Not sure how much I influenced her, but I can see that I did influence her.  Things that we do, things that we like, food that we eat etc.  I do not like the skin of fish.  Whenever I have fish, I would not eat the skin.  When she was little, she asked me why I am not eating the skin, I told her that if you eat the skin, scale will grow on your skin.  Hahaha.  So, since that day, she has not been eating the skin too.

Whenever I saw those little kids at the church, I always recalled her when she was still a little cute baby.  She liked Pikachu and Winnie the Pooh a lot when she was little.  Thus, I bought for her during my trips.  She likes Detective Conan, thus I bought a series, which shared with my beloved, for her birthday present this year.  I protected her, taught her, loved her…  Hope that one day, she will be more successful than me, hope that she can do those I did not manage to do.  Hope that she knows.  And, I hope that she can be more independent.  Do your best, sis.

On the other hand, I feel so sorry to my younger sister, Alison.  I have never loved her as much as I love Cynthia.  I have never put more effort on her, I have never taught her.  Perhaps it is because she used to bully me when we were little.  Anyway, I still love her because she is my sister.  Whenever mum canned her, I felt so heart ache.  I tried to comfort her, tried to get something to apply on her skin, tried to advise her to be better next time.  I am sorry for not being a good sister.  I have not been responsible for so many years.  However, I am really glad to see that she is on the right track at the moment.  May your wishes come true, Alison.

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Friends.  I miss my friends as well.  I am not out-going and I am cold, thus caused my interpersonal relationship  too poor to have friends.  I appreciated those who are willing to befriend with me.  Thank you for being my friends, no matter what.  Nonetheless, I really hope to have many friends.  My ex-classmates are going to have gathering dinner on Christmas eve.  So sad that I cannot join.  Have fun, guys and girls.  And also, some people (Angelina, Mabel, Yan Ni, Jin Mei) are going to have a trip to Singapore together.  Safe trip and enjoy yourselves, girls.  My 15-year (going to be 16-year soon) friend Yun, cheer up.  You used to be happy go lucky.  But lately, you seem to be so unhappy.  Be happy, Yun.  Dear friends, take care, wish you all the best.

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Beloved, family and friends.  He has given me the greatest love because He loves me.

“Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God.  Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.”
1 John 4:7-8

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/12/23/can-you-feel-the-love/feed/ 6 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/12/12/my-big-day/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/12/12/my-big-day/#comments Fri, 12 Dec 2008 00:21:44 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=345 ]]> 13 more days to Christmas.  However, we have a pre-Christmas celebration at the church tomorrow night.  These few days, we are busy with preparation.

Tomorrow is a big day for me.  Why?

1. It is the first time I will be on the stage since I have joined the church choir.
2. It is the first time I will be performing a program at the church in Australia.
3. It is the first time I will be getting my final exam result in Australia.
4. It is the first time I will be celebrating Christmas in Australia.

I am really excited about it.  Hope that everything goes smoothly.  For sure, He will lead us.

“For this is God, our God forever and ever; He will be our guide even to death.”
Psalm 48:14

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/12/12/my-big-day/feed/ 4 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/29/after-finals/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/29/after-finals/#comments Fri, 28 Nov 2008 13:49:35 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=334 ]]> Finally final exams came to an end.  However, it is time to find a job.  Sigh.  Sent my resume, hope that I manage to get one as soon as possible.

Just finished watching an old movie – First Daughter, a romantic comedy film, casted by Katie Holmes and Marc Blucas.  Borrowed from my housemate.  It is quite nice though.

After I had watched the movie, I recalled the story that ben ben told me.  Everyone carries a cross, which belongs to oneself, on the back.

Here it goes the story…

There was once a poor man who had a wooden cross.  One day, he saw a man with an iron cross.  The poor man admired the iron cross so much.  He said to the man, “Can I have your cross?  Let us exchange.”  The man agreed, so the poor man carried the iron cross now.  As he used to carry wooden cross, thus, the poor man could hardly walk with the heavy iron cross.  Later, he saw a rich man with a gold cross.  Again, he exchanged with the man.  Of course, he felt harder.  After few days with the gold cross, he gave up.  The poor man searched for his wooden cross.  Finally, he was backed to normal.  He did not have to carry the heavy iron or gold cross.

He has His plans.  He created different paths for us. Thus, do not admire others, be ourselves, live in our own ways.  We should be contented with whatever we have now.

“But godliness with contentment is great gain.”
1 Timothy 6:6

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/29/after-finals/feed/ 4 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/19/relax-for-a-while/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/19/relax-for-a-while/#comments Wed, 19 Nov 2008 10:42:00 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=294 ]]> International Trade Strategies ( Aim a C.  D is better, HD is the best )
International Finance ( Aim a P is enough )
International Commercial Law
Asia Business Context

Woops.  Two more to go ^_^  I am counting the time at the moment.  Feel so relief after the toughest subject of this semester.

9 more days to my last paper; 35 more days to Christmas! Hohoho~ Santa Clause is coming to town~ What am I doing? Go mad? Of course not.  I am still normal.  Just too excited that can’t wait for the day.  First Christmas away from home.  What will it be?  Anyway, I am glad that I can spend it with my special ones ( That is why I am so excited.  He is coming to visit me. )
Time flied.  Can’t imagine that we have been together for over 1.5 years.

x x x x x x x x x x

I suddenly recalled what a friend had told me.  She told me that she feels lonely and hopeless whenever she wants to find someone to talk to, but no one is available.  I understand her feeling because I belong to that ethnic group too.  As I am not a talker, I can only be her good listener and give her some advices.  I am happy that until now, I am still can be her listener-cum-advisor.  I was once think of going into Psychology as I have the potential.

If you do follow my posts, you definitely will remember what I have said before in The One and Only.  Thank God for giving me a bosom friend.  The one and only, who is willing to listen to me, talk to me at anywhere and anytime.  I am truly appreciated him a lot, a lot.  Who is he?  My beloved – JT.  John Terry???  Justin Timberlake??  Of course not, but he is Justin as well and John Terry is his favourite football player at the moment.  However, no one can beat Gianfranco Zola.  He is the most admirable player of Justin.  If you want to find out the reason he likes Zola so much, you can click here to watch the video from his blog link.  I am not a football lover, but I know those information because he has told me before.

Remember to rest well, take good care of yourself.

x x x x x x x x x x

I hope that I have more friends though.

Good luck to all my friends that having exams or going to have exams.  Those finished exams, wish you have an enjoyable holidays.  And for those working, wish you enjoy your works too.

P/s: Angelina, Mabel, Yan Ni and Jin Mei, enjoy your NYE in Singapore.

Wish everything goes fine.

“Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called sons of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.”
Matthew 5:2-12

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/19/relax-for-a-while/feed/ 2 Jaclyn jj1 http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/13/who-should-i-marry/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/13/who-should-i-marry/#comments Thu, 13 Nov 2008 12:28:53 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=269 ]]> Whom should I marry?

Which one should i get? Any idea?

Crumpler 3 million and Crumpler 4 million

• Crumpler 3 million:

Features

Water resistant 900D shell and 300D Ripstop lining, 1 x external pocket with internal mesh pocket, 2 x internal side pockets, 1 x mesh zip pocket under clip and Velcro release flap, padded and Brushed Nylon lined main compartment, plastic stiffening layer in base, adjustable removable shoulder strap, 4 colours available.

Holds
Suitable for a compact digital SLR, standard zoom lens attached, or DV camera and accessories.
E.g. EOS 300D, 30D, D70, D200 (w/o battery grip) and up to 6″/15cm long lens attached.

Dimensions
A fully padded ‘snoot’ photo bag.  A shoulder bag that provides a protective environment for your basic photo or video equipment that does not scream “photo bag”!

Price
$ 68.00

• Crumpler 4 million:

Features
Water resistant 900D shell and 300D Ripstop lining, 1 x external pocket with internal mesh pocket, 2 x internal side pockets, 2 x external accessory attachment straps, 1 x mesh zip pocket under clip and Velcro release flap, padded and Brushed Nylon lined main compartment, plastic stiffening layer in base, adjustable removable shoulder strap, 4 colours available.

Holds
Suitable for a compact digital SLR, standard zoom lens attached, or DV camera and accessories.
E.g. EOS 300D, 20D, D70, D100 (w/o battery grip) and attached lens up to 6″/15cm long and external speedlight or second lens up to 8″/20cm long.

Dimensions
A fully padded photo bag with 2 x configurable dividers.  This bag is suitable for a compact digital SLR and “twin lens kit” and basic accessories.

Price
$ 88.00

Tamrac Express 5 and Tamrac Express 6

• Tamrac Express 5:

Dimensions
Internal dimensions – 15 x 9 x 16 cm
External dimensions – 20 x 14 x 19 cm
Weight – 335g

Holds
Suitable for a compact digital SLR with lens up to 3 1/2″ long attached and accessories.

Features
Adjustable, foam-padded dividers, a front pocket, zippered Speed Pocket on flap and open pocket in back organize accessories, a side pocket.  Can be carried by carrying handle or adjustable shoulder strap.  Two colours are available.

Price
$ 49.95 + shipping cost $ 9.90 = Total $ 59.85

• Tamrac Express 6:

Dimensions
Internal dimensions – 20 x 10 x 20 cm
External dimensions – 25 x 15 x 23 cm
Weight – 485g

Holds
Suitable for a digital SLR with lens up to 5 1/2″ long attached, an additional lens, a small flash and accessories.

Features
Adjustable, foam-padded dividers, a front pocket, zippered Speed Pocket on flap and open pocket in back organize accessories, a side pocket.  Can be carried by carrying handle or adjustable shoulder strap.  Two colours are available.

Price
$ 69.95 + shipping cost $ 9.90 = Total $ 79.85

I am undecided.  I have to choose one of them.  But which one??

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/13/who-should-i-marry/feed/ 6 Jaclyn crumpler2 tamrac http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/10/footprints-of-love/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/10/footprints-of-love/#comments Mon, 10 Nov 2008 12:22:23 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=261 ]]>

走在沙灘上，我們都會留下足跡，除非我們只是飃著過，或是腳步太輕到沒重量。  在愛情中，如果我們也只是飃著過或輕輕的走過，那麽這段戀情，很容易就吹了。  因爲當我們回頭看一看，沒有留下任何足跡，就像沒有走過那樣，所以就此罷手，也無所謂。  反之，如果我們回頭看到深深的足跡，我們就知道，原來我們已經走了一段路。  想想在一起渡過的風風雨雨，選擇繼續走下去還是罷手，也會三思而後行。

莎士比亞也說過， But thy eternal summer shall not fade。  花會凋謝，人會衰老，但愛是不會變。

“Many waters cannot quench love; rivers cannot wash it away.”
Song of Solomon 8:7

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/10/footprints-of-love/feed/ 3 Jaclyn Footprints of Love http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/07/past-present/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/07/past-present/#comments Fri, 07 Nov 2008 10:55:32 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=247 ]]> There is a quote which I like the most in Kung Fu Panda – “The past is history, the future is a mystery, today is a gift, that’s why it is called the present”.

The past is history.  No matter what we did in the past, they became history.  Grant that we find the answers or solutions now, what can we do?  It is unless to talk about the past because we cannot put the clock back.

Do we have to consider a person’s past?  Do we have to keep on talking or gossiping a person’s past?  We cannot judge a person by his/her past as past does not equal to present.  The world is changing, why can’t a person change?  Thus, never ever judged a person by his/her past.

But the LORD said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”
1 Samuel 16:7

A person’s heart plays the most important role in anything.  As long as he/she is sincere, no matter what he/she did in the past, it does not matter to me.

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/07/past-present/feed/ 2 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/05/badminton/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/05/badminton/#comments Wed, 05 Nov 2008 03:13:25 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=206 ]]> 星期天，我與契友們去打羽球。  那是我三個月來，第一次去運動。  嗯… 走路也算運動吧？ 那就不是第一次運動咯。  我一貫都玩單打的，所以，完全不懂雙打的規則。  而且，我也不了解我的隊友，所以我表現得好差。  我心想： 我的隊友肯定一直埋怨我。  對方也一樣吧。  在那情況下，我覺得多不好意思。  打了三場，我放棄了。  不打了。  靜靜的坐在觀衆席上，觀賞其他人打。

我發現，談戀愛就像打羽球。

一、 我一直很擔心我會不小心打到隊友，因此我很少跑動。  所以，隊友一直跑來跑去地接球。  在戀愛中，也是一樣。  如果一方害怕傷害另一方，一方就會付出得很少，以免做了傷害另一方的事。  然而，另一方會覺得好辛苦，因爲只有一方付出。

二、 此外，因沒有很認識隊友，所以我並不了解他。  互不了解之下，彼此就沒有默契。  在戀愛中，如果彼此不了解，默契自然也不會產生。

三、 我當天失手好多次。  明明接到球了，可是卻沒成功把球打給對方。  我很不好意思地向隊友道歉，可他還是說： “沒關係。”   在戀愛中，如果彼此不能大方點、寬容點，那麽就一定會吵架了。

是啊。  如果我們還是用一貫性的單打方式在雙打裏，當然不會有好成績的。  雙打是要靠兩個人合作、配合，才能打得好的。  因此，只要互相了解、彼此容忍，戀愛肯定會成功的。

“If you forgive those who sin against you, your heavenly Father will forgive you. But if you refuse to forgive others, your Father will not forgive your sins.”
Matthew 6:14-15

“Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.“
Ephesians 4:2

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/11/05/badminton/feed/ 2 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/31/announcement/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/31/announcement/#comments Fri, 31 Oct 2008 02:30:53 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=195 ]]> Don’t worry, it is not about house moving.
It is just that my boyfriend, Justin and I have a new home.
Feel free to visit our home.
Kindly click here to sign up as a follower of our new home.

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/31/announcement/feed/ 0 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/24/finding-true-self/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/24/finding-true-self/#comments Thu, 23 Oct 2008 13:09:33 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=187 ]]> 曾經學長姐說我是個完美主義者。可當時我倒不覺得。
但是最近，我才發現，我確實一直在追求完美，而且挺在意別人的評價。

在家裏，我得扮演一個乖乖女的角色。
因爲不想被挨駡，我特意不做讓家人不悅的事。
雖然有厭言，也不敢吭聲。

在學校，我得扮演一個好學生的角色。
因爲不想破壞“好學生”的形象。雖然很睏，
我還是硬撐，不趴在桌上睡。

在課外活動，我得扮演一個鐵人的角色。
因爲不想被認爲我是個脆弱的人。
雖然很疲憊，我還是完成任務。

在外頭，我得扮演一個好人的角色。
因爲不想被別人批評。
雖然有時候並非我意，我還是按照他意行事。

所以，我把真正的自己，鎖起來。
我寧可一直保持安靜不説話，
也不想使人生氣，被討厭，被挨駡，被離棄…

當與我有關的人群不被肯定或是犯了錯，
我也好害怕自己因此而不被肯定。
我想控制整個群體，以免被拖下水。
可那礭是在我能力之外。

我求完美，是爲了被肯定。

真正的我，只能躲在房裏時，才會出現。
真正的我，只能在笨笨面前，才會出現。
真正的我，只能在祂面前時，才會出現。

据笨笨說，我在他面前，就像一個小孩子，
想說什麽就說什麽，有說不完的故事，
迫不及待地想告訴他一切。
我好開心地一直說、一直說…
那时候的我，最可爱。

不顧慮太多，活出真正的自己，作祂所喜悅的事。

“The one who sent me is with me; he has not left me alone, for I always do what pleases him.”
John 8：29

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/24/finding-true-self/feed/ 6 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/19/run-forward/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/19/run-forward/#comments Sun, 19 Oct 2008 10:05:10 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=176 ]]> I used to be very confident.  Whenever others critized me, I would retort confidently, claimed that I am right.

By degrees, I found that my confidence has faded away.

Is this a good change?

I don’t know.  I only know that I should be more tolerant.  If it is my fault, I must say “Sorry” whereas if it is other sides’ fault, tolerant with them, forgive and forget.

“Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.  Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.”
Ephesians 4:31-32

Right now, I should look forward.  Forget what is behind.  No matter confident or no confident, just let it be.  Work hard for the future and live peacefully.

“Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it.  But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 3:13-14

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/19/run-forward/feed/ 2 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/15/runaway/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/15/runaway/#comments Wed, 15 Oct 2008 10:03:28 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=167 ]]>

無名的怒火
有說不出的無力想敲打我自己
麻木的神經
感覺自己像個機器快不能呼吸
火辣的太陽永遠在前方
無盡的公路無盡的追求
我想要 run away run away
不要再懷疑自己對不對
甩開一切無所謂
Run away run away
像困在霧裏
焦躁的想從茫然的現實中逃離
淡掉的感情
還堅持下去又有什麽意義
風吹亂頭髮黑暗星空下
無盡的公路無盡的自由
我需要 run away run away
不要再懷疑自己對不對
甩開一切無所謂就快去
Run away run away
我可以 run away run away
不要再懷疑自己對不對
是為自己不為誰
不在乎的 run away
很多人再説不斷的一直說
必須這樣子做不能夠那樣做
卻又沒有辦法在自己的生命中突破 oh ya~
如果再不走就永遠不會走
別讓自己再回頭
沒掙扎怎能夠有自由快走
現在就 run away run away
不要再懷疑自己對不對
甩開一切無所謂
Run away run away
快點去 run away run away
不想再懷疑自己對不對
是為自己不為誰
不在乎的 run away
現在要 run away run away
今天要 run away run away
現在要 run away run away
今天要 run away run away

陶喆 – Runaway

I wanna run away~ I am flat out with assignments. I just finished the Asia Business Context assignment. Have been spending my time with assignments in these hectic weeks.

Finally one assignment left, which due on next Thursday.

Run away to……

an invigorating place…

“The Lord will give strength unto his people; the Lord will bless his people with peace.”
Psalm 29:11

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/15/runaway/feed/ 4 Jaclyn road-4a 01 http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/06/final-exams/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/06/final-exams/#comments Mon, 06 Oct 2008 05:45:19 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=164 ]]> 41 days to final exam.

Examination timetable is released…

17 November – International Trade Strategies
19 November – International Finance
25 November – International Business Law
28 November – Asia Business Context

Need to work hard on them.

Where there is a will, there is a way. 

Prepare well and do my best.  I know I shall not be worried.

“An anxious heart weighs a man down, but a kind word cheers him up.”
Proverbs 12:25

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/06/final-exams/feed/ 5 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/03/the-one-and-only/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/03/the-one-and-only/#comments Fri, 03 Oct 2008 12:09:50 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=157 ]]> My life was quite solitary.
I even was suspected to have autism.
In fact, I didn’t like to be alone.

School hours, tuitions, co-curricula activity, study, eat, and sleep.
Watching television and online were prohibited.
Luckily I had a CD playable radio in my room. That was the only entertainment I had.
I only got my first mobile phone when I was in senior two.

I understood that they wanted me to study hard. Thus, I was quite self-driven.
It was grateful that they won’t disallow me to go out with friends during holidays because I had been being a good daughter.

I wished to have many friends, talked about anything.
I really admired those who were very popular. They had friends everywhere.

Time passed.

Finally I found a bosom friend. The one and only bosom friend I have.
I was so happy that we can share many things as we have same interests, hobbies and views.
To lose my bosom friend, it was something that I didn’t wish ever happen.

Dilatorily, we reclined on each other. He drew us together.

Yes, my bosom friend, my acushla.

My beloved, I am always here. Don’t fear, I will support you.

“Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave. It burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame.”
Song of Solomon 8:6

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/03/the-one-and-only/feed/ 4 Jaclyn t-shirt-11 http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/01/stressed-out/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/01/stressed-out/#comments Wed, 01 Oct 2008 06:26:59 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=152 ]]> Did not sleep well these few weeks. Woke up frequently in the night. Sigh. In such a state of affairs, I feel weary and idle everyday.

What can I do to relieve my stress?

Close my eyes, listen to music, imagine that I am spending my time with my acushla.

The sea, aether, alp, grassland, running water, garden… It is really invigorating.

“My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.”
Psalms 62:1-2

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/10/01/stressed-out/feed/ 2 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/09/30/yearn/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/09/30/yearn/#comments Tue, 30 Sep 2008 06:32:24 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=140 ]]> 85 days to Christmas Day.  That’s mean we can see each other in less than three months.

It is imperative that I should be there at this moment.  Companion, encouragement and comfort.  Those are what you need.  4154.29 miles apart.  Distant range notwithstanding, you have never missed to contact me everyday.  Send you my everlasting feeling of gratefulness and thankfulness.

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don’t wanna close my eyes
I don’t wanna fall asleep
‘Cause I’d miss you, babe
And I don’t wanna miss a thing
‘Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I’d still miss you, babe
And I don’t wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I’m wondering what you’re dreaming
Wondering if it’s me you’re seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we’re together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

Aerosmith – I Don’t Wanna Miss A Thing

“Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.”
Ephesians 4:2

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/09/30/yearn/feed/ 2 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/09/27/unfathomable/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/09/27/unfathomable/#comments Sat, 27 Sep 2008 10:38:02 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=138 ]]> So many man, so many minds.

Who can you believing in?

Sometimes, you will feel that your sincerity has been questioned.

“I will not leave you comfortless; I will come to you.”
John 14:18

He is the most trustworthy.  It is indubitable.

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/09/27/unfathomable/feed/ 2 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/09/25/mid-term-break-assignments-week/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/09/25/mid-term-break-assignments-week/#comments Thu, 25 Sep 2008 01:06:37 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=133 ]]> It is mid-term break.  Unfortunately, there are three assignments waiting for me to be done within two weeks.  I am not a person that likes to do things by last minute.  Group work.  Thus, I can’t say anything.  Sigh.  See.  What I got now?  I am going to work on them this week…

There is another assigment coming soon.  International Business Law.  It is an individual work, due on 23 October 2008.  – _ -

TOTAL four assignments!

Sigh.

How I wish someone can help me with these.

But… what to do?

I just hope that I can work under stress and finish all of these on time.  The most important is: I can’t fall sick.  Wish me all the best.

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:6-7

]]> http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/09/25/mid-term-break-assignments-week/feed/ 0 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/09/21/emotional-and-spiritual-sustenance/ http://jwxn.wordpress.com/2008/09/21/emotional-and-spiritual-sustenance/#comments Sun, 21 Sep 2008 08:24:10 +0000 Jaclyn http://jwxn.wordpress.com/?p=126 ]]> Desparation, loneliness and helpless.  Tears kept on running down.  Those were the days when I first reached this new environment.

“… 在基督裏，必有力量，人生旅途中，我靠主得剛強” – 《豐盛人生》     I entrusted all to Him, let Him guide me.  I pray hard everyday.  I do feel better whenever I pray because it is a good way of emotional and spiritual sustenance.

Thus, if we are desperated, down, lonely… Pray.  We definitely will find our way.  Remember that He is always there to help us, unless we don’t accept it.

“He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.”
Isaiah 40:29

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I realised that I was too weak.  We should not be beaten by the sufferings.  He has His plan.  He wants us to be a child with full of strength and perseverance.  I gradually backed to normal.  Of course, I still miss you a lot.  I keep on telling myself, “Though you are not physically here, but you are always by my side.  Because you are my heart beat.”  Having faith in Him and you, I rejoice in the sufferings.

Same goes to you.  Do not feel sad.  Continue the journey bravely.  Look, what did He give you?  He gave you the chance to come here this December.  At least you don’t have to wait until next July.  Be patient.  Be strong.  The day will come soon.

“Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.”
Romans 5:3-4

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